Why?

    The why questions have started.  Benaiah has been asking why for a while now, but never has he asked why do I have to wear braces, why not Silas?  Why can't I talk? 

     So tonight while putting him down for bed I got to tell him all about his stroke, how happy we are that he survived, why he can't talk, why he has to wear his night braces.   He seemed to understand epilepsy the most, but up until this summer that was the biggest thing we were dealing with that he would remember.  During our furlough this time he ended up with alot of physical therapy, occupational therapy and speech so he has figured out that something is different with him.  I told him I was so proud of how hard he has worked and how far he has come. How he can use a scissors, hold a pencil correctly, jump.  I told him that I believed that he has many words in his head that his tongue can't get out.  He then proceeded to say tongue and then stuck it out.  I told him God is using him already and that God never makes a mistake.  Patch the Pirate sings a great song that he wrote when he was battling cancer.  These are the words:


Rejoice in the Lord

God never moves without purpose or plan
When trying His servant and molding a man.
Give thanks to the Lord though your testing seems long;
   
In darkness He giveth a song.
I could not see through the shadows ahead,
So I looked at the cross of my Savior instead.
I bowed to the will of the Master that day;
Then peace came and tears fled away.
Now I can see testing comes from above;
God strengthens His children and purges in love.
My Father knows best, and I trust in His care;
Through purging, more fruit I will bear. 
O rejoice in the Lord, He makes no mistake.
He knoweth the end of each path that I take.
For when I am tried and purified,
I shall come forth as gold.
—Ron Hamilton (“Patch the Pirate”)

    Tonight was tough for me, but I knew it was coming.  I believe he went to sleep understanding more about himself.